A FOOLISH ARRANGEMENT

Christabel strips
And slips like a dream
Breaking ice with arms that gleam with pain
Disdain...
She throws her head
And glides against the stream
Throwing me her bravest smile
Defiant
Glittering
Shivering guile

"Catching a cold is quick this time
But fish?... Fish may take a while..."

Christabel dips and slips from me
And hand pushed deep inside is suddenly free
Triumphant
Reluctantly
Struggling six legs held up for me to see

"Don't be scared
It's nothing new
It's the same old game; only fun with two..."
But fast and over and over
"I can't play this game with you"

Everything she tries to tell me
Leaves me open mouthed and still
Foolishly arrange tomorrow
The way I always will

Christabel trips
And grips my hand
But never to be saved
For a second I understand
And I fall with her...

"I'll never leave you
Love you
See you change into the man I want
But it's not for long this thing
It's not for long..."

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10.15 SATURDAY NIGHT
 
10.15 
Saturday night
And the tap drips
Under the strip light
And I'm sitting
In the kitchen sink
And the tap drips
Drip drip drip drip drip drip drip drip

Waiting
For the telephone to ring
And I'm wondering
Where she's been
And I'm crying
For yesterday
And the tap drips
Drip drip drip drip drip drip drip drip

It's always the same

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ACCURACY
 
We sit in the same room
Side by side
I give you the wrong lines 
Feed you
Accuracy
Accuracy

Look into my eyes
We both smile
I could kill you
Without trying 
That's accuracy
Accuracy
Accuracy
...
Accuracy
Accuracy
Practice all day for accuracy
Mirror mirror on the wall

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ANOTHER DAY
 
The sun rises slowly
On another day
The eastern sky grows 
Cold
Winter in water colours
Shades of grey

Something
Something holds me
Holds me hypnotized

I stare at the window
Stare at the window
Waiting for the day 
To go
Winter in water colours
Shades of grey

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BOYS DON'T CRY
 
I would say I'm sorry 
If I thought that it would change your mind
But I know that this time
I've said too much
Been too unkind

I try to laugh about it
Cover it all up with lies
I try and
Laugh about it
Hiding the tears in my eyes
'cause boys don't cry
Boys don't cry

I would break down at your feet
And beg forgiveness
Plead with you
But I know that
It's too late
And now there's nothing I can do

So I try to laugh about it
Cover it all up with lies
I try to
laugh about it
Hiding the tears in my eyes
'cause boys don't cry

I would tell you
That I loved you
If I thought that you would stay
But I know that it's no use
That you've already
Gone away

Misjudged your limits
Pushed you too far
Took you for granted
I thought that you needed me more

Now I would do most anything
To get you back by my side
But I just
Keep on laughing
Hiding the tears in my eyes
'cause boys don't cry
Boys don't cry
Boys don't cry

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FIRE IN CAIRO
 
Slowly fading blue
The eastern hollows catch
The dying sun
Night-time follows 
Silence and black
Mirror pool mirrors
The lonely place
Where I meet you

See your head
In the fading light
And through the dark
Your eyes shine bright

And burn
Like fire
Burn like fire in Cairo
Burn like fire
Burn like fire in Cairo

Shifting crimson veil
Silken hips slide
Under my hand
Swollen lips whisper
My name
And I yearn
You take me in your arms
And start to burn

FIREINCAIRO
FIREINCAIRO
FIREINCAIRO
Then the heat disappears
And the mirage
Fades away

FIREINCAIRO
FIREINCAIRO
FIREINCAIRO
FIREINCAIRO
FIREINCAIRO
FIREINCAIRO
FIREINCAIRO
FIREINCAIRO

Burn like a fire in Cairo
Burn like a
Fire
Blaze like a fire in Cairo
Blaze like a
Fire
Flare
Burn like fire
Burn like
Fire in Cairo

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GRINDING HALT
 
No light
No people
No speak
No people
No cars
No people
No food
No people

Stopped
Short
Grinding halt
Everything's coming to a griding halt

No sound
No people
No clocks
No people
No fine
No people
No me
No people

Stopped
Short
Grinding halt
Everything's coming to a griding halt
Everything's coming to a griding halt

Slow down
Slow down
No people
Slow down
Everything's coming to a 
Everything's coming to a 
Everything's coming to a 
Everything's coming to a 

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JUMPING SOMEONE ELSE'S TRAIN
 
Don't say what you mean
You might spoil your face
If you walk in the crowd
You won't leave any trace
It's always the same
You're jumping someone else's train

It won't take you long 
To learn the new smile
You'll have to adapt 
Or you'll be out of style
It's always the same
You're jumping someone else's train

If you pick up on it quick
You can say you were there
Again and again and again
You're jumping someone else's train

It's the latest wave
That you've been craving for
The old ideal
Was getting such a bore
Now you're back in line
Going not quite quite as far 
But in half the time
Everyone's happy    
They're finally all the same
'cause everyone's jumping
Everyone else's train    

Jumping someone else's train
Jumping someone else's train
Jumping someone else's train

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KILLING AN ARAB
 
Standing on the beach
With a gun in my hand
Staring at the sea
Staring at the sand
Staring down the barrel
At the arab on the ground
I can see his open mouth    
But I hear no sound    

I'm alive
I'm dead
I'm the stranger
Killing an arab

I can turn 
And walk away
Or I can fire the gun
Staring at the sky
Staring at the sun
Whichever I chose
It amounts to the same
Absolutely nothing

I'm alive
I'm dead
I'm the stranger
Killing an arab

I feel the steel butt jump    
Smooth in my hand
Staring at the sea
Staring at the sand
Staring at myself
Reflected in the eyes
Of the dead man on the beach
The dead man on the beach

I'm alive
I'm dead
I'm the stranger
Killing an arab

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OBJECT
 
You know you turn me on
Eyes so white and legs so long
But don't try to talk to me
I won't listen to your lies
You're just an object in my eyes
You're just an object in my eyes

Sophisticated smile
You seduce in such fine style
But don't try to fool me
'cause I can see through your disguise
You're just an object in my eyes
You're just an object in my eyes

But I don't mind
I just don't care
I've got no objection
To you touching me there

Object object
Object object
Object object
Object object

You know just what to do
Lick your lips
And I want you
But don't try to hold me
'cause I don't want any ties
You're just an object in my eyes
You're just an object in my eyes

But I don't mind
I just don't care
I've got no objections
To you touching me there
You're just an object object
Object object
You're just an object

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PLASTIC PASSION
 
Plastic passion is a hard to handle
Plastic passion is a sold out scandal
Oh it's a plastic passion
It's a plastic passion
Plastic passion is the ladies lover
Plastic passion is the marble mother
Oh it's a plastic passion
It's a plastic passion
Plastic passion is a diamond delight
Plastic passion is the nadir of night
Oh it's a plastic passion 
It's a plastic passion
It's a plastic passion
Plastic passion is a hycoscine heart
Plastic passion is a transparent tart
Oh it's a plastic passion
It's a plastic passion
Plastic passion is a gold guarantee
The plastic passion is murdering me
Oh it's a plastic passion
It's a plastic passion
It's a plastic passion

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SO WHAT?
 
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Special offer
Only 3 pound 30
Save 1 pound 52 on recommended retail price
Give your cakes and pies a professional look
With this superb
Decorating set

I'm not meant to be here
But so what?
And nobody's
Nobody's taken your place
Nobody's taken your place

Each set includes
A turntable
A nine inch icing bag
With six high definition nozzles and adaptor
With a fifteen inch food decorating bag
With three piping nozzles
Please send off this leaflet
Post it today

And if you knew
Nothing could replace you
If you were sane
Your heart wouldn't ache
But so what?
So what?
So what?

Order now
Allow twenty one days
For deliver
This offer closes
31st December 1979

British sugar bureau
When I told you what I
And I

And I wouldn't ask you to pretend
That we were one
And still another time
Forget all the lies forgive me the wounds
And all the world was used to love
And yes we'd still be happy in another time
But so what?
So what?

So please send me icing and decorating sets
I enclose a cheque and postal order number

So what?
So what?

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SUBWAY SONG
 
Midnight in the subway
She's on her way home
She tries hard not to run
But she feels she's not alone
Echoes of footsteps
Follow close behind
But she dare not turn around

Turn around

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THREE IMAGINARY BOYS
 
Walk across the garden 
In the footsteps of my shadow
See the lights out
No one's home
In amongst the statues
Stare at nothing in
The garden moves
Can you help me?

Close my eyes
And hold so tightly
Scared of what the morning brings
Waiting for tomorrow 
Never comes
Deep inside
The empty feeling
All the night time leaves me
Three imaginary boys

Slipping through the door
Hear my heart beats in the hallway
Echoes 
Round and round
Inside my head
Drifting up the stairs
I see the steps behind me
Disappearing
Can you help me?

Close my eyes
And hold so tightly
Scared of what the morning brings
Waiting for tomorrow
Never comes
Deep inside
The empty feeling
All the night time leaves me
Three imaginary boys sing in my
Sleep sweet child
The moon will change your mind

See the cracked reflection
Standing still
Before the bedroom mirror
Over my shoulder
But no one's there
Whispers in the silence
Pressing close behind me
Pressing close behind
Can you help me?
Can you help me?
Can you help me?

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WORLD WAR
 
Dressed in Berlin black
I was only playing
Disguise my words to fool you
>From what I was saying
Mud trench
Meat stench
The fatherland is looking on
Grip you in a luger lock
This will be the big one

World war
No one would believe me
No one's a winner
No one's a loser
Just a dead friend

Heaven heaven
Give me pride
Give me a golden hand
Smash them with an iron rule
Spit them out like sand
Sit and wait
Then run like hell
Run like hell one time again
Sow the seeds of hate
Underneath destruction

World war
No one would believe me
No one's a winner
No one's a loser
Just a dead friend
World war
No one would believe me
No one's a winner
No one's a loser

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CLOSEDOWN
 
i'm running out of time i'm out of step and
closing down and never sleep for wanting hours
the empty hours of greed and uselessly always
the need to feel again the real belief of
something more than mockery if only i could
fill my heart with love

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DISINTEGRATION
 
oh i miss the kiss of treachery the shameless
kiss of vanity the soft and the black and the
velvety up tight against the side of me and
mouth and eyes and heart all bleed and run in
thickening streams of greed as bit by bit it
starts the need to just let go my party piece

oh i miss the kiss of treachery the aching kiss
before i feed the stench of a love for a younger
meat and the sound that it makes when it cuts
in deep the holding up on bended knees the
addiction of duplicities as bit by bit it starts
the need to just let go my party piece

but i never said i would stay to the end so i
leave you with babies and hoping for frequency
screaming like this in the hope of the secrecy
screaming me over and over and over i leave
you with photographs pictures of trickery
stains on the carpet and stains on the scenery
songs about happiness murmured in dreams
when we both us knew how the ending would
be...

so it's all come back round to breaking apart
again breking apart like i'm made up of glass
again making it up behind my back again
holding my breath for the fear of sleep again
holding it up behind my head again cut in deep
to the heart of the bone again round and round
and round and it's coming apart again over and
over and over

now that i know that i'm breaking to pieces i'll
pull out my heart and i'll feed it to anyone
crying for sympathy crocodile cry for the love
of the crowd and the three cheers from
everyone dropping through sky through the
glass of the roof through the roof of your mouth
through the mouth of your eye through the eye
of the needle it's easier for me to get closer to
heaven than ever feel whole again

i never said i would stay to the end i knew i
would leave you with babies and everything
screaming like this in the hole of sincerity
screaming me over and over and over i leave
you with photographs pictues of trickery
stains on the carpet and stains on the memory
songs about
happiness murmured in dreams when we both
of us knew how the end always is...

how the end always is...

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FASCINATION STREET
 
oh it's opening time down on fascination street
so let's cut the conversation and get out for a
bit because i feel it all fading and paling and i'm
begging to drag you down with me to kick the
last nail in yeah i like you in that like i like you
to scream but if you open your mouth then i
cant be responsible for quite what goes in or
to care what comes out so just pull on your hair
just pull on your pout and let's move to the beat
like we know that it's over if you slip going
under slip over my shoulder so just pull on your
face just pull on your feet and let's hit opening
time down on fascination street

so pull on your hair pull on your pout cut the
conversation just open your mouth pull on your
face pull on your feet and let's hit opening time
down on fascination street

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HOMESICK
 
hey hey! just one more and i'll walk away all
the everything you win turns to nothing today
and i forget when to move when my mouth is this
dry and my eyes are bursting  hearts in a blood-
stained sky oh it was sweet it was wild and oh
how we...i trembled stuck in honey honey
cling to me so just one more just one more go
inspire in me the desire in me to never go home

oh just one more and i'll walk away all the
everything you win turns to nothing today so
just one more just one more go inspire in me
the desire in me to never go home

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LAST DANCE
 
i'm so glad you came i'm so glad
you remembered to see how we're endeding our last
dance together expectant too puctual but
prettier than ever i really believed that this time
it's forever

but older than me now more constant more real
and the fur and the mouth and the innocence
turned to hair and contentment that hangs in
abesement a woman now standing where once
there was only a girl

i'm so glad you came i'm so glad you
remembered the walking through walls in the
heart of december the blindness of happiness
of falling down laughing and i really believed
that this time was forever

but christmas falls late now flatter and colder
and never as bright as when we used to fall all
this in an instant before i can kiss you a woman
now standing were once there was only a girl

i'm so gled that you came i'm so glld you
remembered to see how we're ending our last
dance together reluctantly cautiously but
prettier than ever i really beleived that this time
it's forever

but christman falls late now flatter and colder
and never as bright as when we used to fall and
even if we drink i don't think we would kiss in
the way that we did when the woman was only a
girl

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LOVESONG
 
whenever I'm alone with you you make me feel
like i am home again whenever i'm alone with
you you make me feel like i am whole again

whenever i'm alone with you you make me feel
like i am young again whenever i'm alone with
you you make me feel like i am fun again

however far away i will always love you however
long i stay i will always love you whatever
words i say i will always love you i will always
love you

whenever i'm alone with you you make me feel
like i am free again whenever i'm alone with
you you make me feel like i am clean again

however far away i will always love you however
long i stay i will always love you whatever
words i say i will always love you i will always
love you

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LULLABY
 
on candystripe legs spiderman comes
softly through the shadow of the evening sun
stealing past the windows of the blissfully dead
looking for the victim shivering in bed
searching out fear in the gathering gloom and
suddenly! a movement in the corner of the
room! and there is nothing i can do when i
realise with freight that the spiderman is having
me for dinner tonight

quietly he laughs and shaking his head creeps
closer now closer to the foot of the bed and
softer than shadow and quicker than flies his
arms are all around me and his tongue in my
eyes "be still be calm be quiet now my precious
boy don't struggle like that or i will only love
you more for it's much too late to get away or
turn on the light the spiderman is having you
for dinner tonight"

and i feel like i'm being eaten by a thousand
million shivering furry holes and i know that in
the morning i will wake up in the shivering cold
and the spiderman is always hungry...

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PICTURES OF YOU
 
i've been looking so long at these pictures of
you that i almost beleive that they're real i've
been living so long with my pictures of you that
i almost believe that the pictures are all i can
feel

remembering you standing quiet in the rain as
i ran to your heart to be near and we kissed as
the sky fell in holding you close how i always
held close in your fear remembering you
running soft through the night you were bigger
and brigther than the snow and
screamed at the make-beleive screamed at the
sky and you finally found all your courage to
let it all go

remembering you fallen into my arms crying
for the death of your heart you were stone
white so delicate lost in the cold you were
always so lost in the dark remembering you
how you used to be slow drowned you were
angels so much more than everything oh hold
for the last time then slip away quietly open
my eyes but i never see anything

if only i had thought of the right words i could
have hold on to your heart if only i'd thought of
the right words i wouldn't be breaking apart all
my pictures of you

Looking So long at these pictures of you but i
never hold on to your heart looking so  long for
the words to be true but always just breaking
apart my pictures of you

there was nothing in the world that i ever
wanted more than to feel you deep in my heart
there was nothing in the world that i ever
wanted more than to never feel the breaking
apart all my pictures of you

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PLAINSONG
 
"i think it's dark and it looks like rain" you said
"and the wind is blowing like it's the end of the
world" you said "and it's so cold it's like the
cold if you were dead" and then you smiled for
a second.

"i think i'm old and i'm in pain" you said
"and it's all running out like it's the end of the
world" you said "and it's so cold it's like the
cold if you were dead" and then you smiled for
a second

sometimes you make me feel like i'm living at
the edge of the world like i'm living at the edge
of the world "it's just the way i smile" you said

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PRAYERS FOR RAIN
 
you shatter me your grip on me a hold on me
so dull it kills you stifle me infectious sense of
hopelessness and prayers for rain i suffocate i
breathe in dirt and nowhere shines but desolate
and drab the hours all spent on killing time
again all waiting for the rain

you fracture me your hands on me a touch so
plain so stale it kills you strangle me entangle
me in hopelessness and prayers for rain i
deteriorate i live in dirt and nowhere glows but
drearily and tired the hours all spent on killing
time again all waiting for the rain

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THE SAME DEEP WATER AS YOU
 
kiss me goodbye pushing out before i sleep
can't you see i try swimming the same deep
water as you is hard "the shallow drowned lose
less than we" you breathe the strangest twist
upon your lips "and we shall be together..."

"kiss me goodbye bow your head and join with
me" and face pushed deep rteflections meet
the strangest twist upon your lips and
dissapear the ripples clear and laughing break
against your feet and laughing break the mirror
sweet "so we shall be together..."

"kiss me goodbye" pushing out before i sleep
it's lower now and slower now the strangest
twist upon your lips but i don't see and i dont
feel but tightly hold up silently my hands
before my fading eyes and in my eyes your
smile the very last thing before i go...

i will kiss you i will kiss you i will kiss you
forever on nights like this i will kiss you i will
kiss you and we shall be together...

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UNTITLED
 
hopelessly drift in the eyes of the ghost again
down on my knees and my hands in the air again
pushing my face in the memory of you again
but i never know if it's real never know how i
wanted to feel never quite said what i wanted
to say to you never quite managed the words to
explain to you never quite knew how to make
them beleivable and now the time has gone
another time undone hopelessly fighting the
devil futility feeling the monster climb deeper
inside of me feeling him gnawing my heart away
hungrily i'll never lose this pain never dream of

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ALL CATS ARE GREY
 
I never thought that I would find myself
In bed amongst the stones
The columns are all men
Begging to crush me
No shapes sail on the dark deep lakes
And no flags wave me home

In the caves
All cats are grey
In the caves
The textures coat my skin
In the death cell 
A single note
Rings on and on and on

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DOUBT
 
Stop my flight to fight
And die
And take a stand to change my life
So savage with red desperation
I clench my hands
You draw your claws
A hidden rage consumes my heart
Fuelled by years of wasted time 
I close my eyes
And tense myself
And screaming 
Throw myself in fury over the edge
And into your blood

Tear at flesh 
And rip at skin
And smash at doubt
I have to break you
Fury drives my vicious blows
I see you fall but still I strike you
Again and again
Your body falls
The movement is sharp and clear and pure
And gone
I stop and kneel beside you
Drained of everything but pain

Screaming throw myself in fury
Over the edge and into your blood

Kiss you once and see you writhe
Hold you close and hear you cry
Kiss your eyes and finish your life
Kiss your eyes
Finish your life

Again and again
Your body falls
The movement is sharp and clear and pure
And gone
I stop and kneel beside you
Knowing I'll murder you again tonight

Knowing I'll murder you again
Knowing I'll murder you again
Knowing I'll murder you again
Knowing I'll murder you again 
Tonight

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THE DROWNING MAN
 
She stands twelve feet above the flood
She stares
Alone
Across the water

The loneliness grows and slowly 
Fills her frozen body
Sliding downwards

One by one her senses die 
The memories fade 
And leave her eyes
Still seeing worlds that never were
And one by one the bright birds leave her ...

Starting at the violent sound
She tries to turn
But final
Noiseless
Slips and strikes her soft dark head
The water bows
Receives her
And drowns her at its ease
Drowns her at its ease

I would have left the world all bleeding
Could I only help you love
The fleeting shapes
So many years ago
So young and beautiful and brave

Everything was true
It couldn't be a story

I wish it was all true
I wish it couldn't be a story
The words all left me
Lifeless
Hoping
Breathing like the drowning man

Oh Fushia
You leave me
Breathing like the drowning man
Breathing like the drowning man

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FAITH
 
Catch me if I fall
I'm losing hold
I can't just carry on this way
And every time 
I turn away
Lose another blind game
The idea of perfection holds me
Suddenly I see you change
Everything at once
The same
But the mountain never moves  

Rape me like a child
Christened in blood
Painted like an unknown saint
There's nothing left but hope
Your voice is dead
And old
And always empty
Trust in me through closing years
Perfect moments wait
If only we could stay 
Please
Say the right words
Or cry like the stone white clown 
And stand forever
Lost forever in a happy crowd

No one lifts their hands
No one lifts their eyes
Justified with empty words
The party just gets better and better

I went away alone 
With nothing left 
But faith

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THE FUNERAL PARTY
 
Two pale figures
Ache in silence
Timeless
In the quiet ground
Side by side
In age and sadness

I watched
And acted wordlessly
As piece by piece
You performed your story
Moving through an unknown past
Dancing at the funeral party

Memories of childrens dreams
Lie lifeless
Fading
Lifeless
Hand in hand with fear and shadows
Crying at the funeral party

I heard a song 
And turned away
As piece by piece
You performed your story
Noiselessly across the floor
Dancing at the funeral party

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THE HOLY HOUR
 
I kneel and wait in silence
As one by one the people slip away
Into the night
The quiet and empty bodies
Kiss the ground before they pray
Kiss the ground
And slip away

I sit and listen dreamlessly
A promise of salvation makes me stay
Then look at your face
And feel my heart pushed in
As all around the children play
The games they tired of yesterday
They play
They play

I stand and hear my voice
Cry out
A wordless scream at ancient power   
It breaks against stone
I softly leave you crying
I cannot hold what you devour
The sacrifice of penance 
In the holy hour

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OTHER VOICES
 
Whisper your name in an empty room
You brush past my skin
As soft as fur
Taking hold
I taste your scent
Distant noises
Other voices
Pounding in my broken head
Commit the sin
Commit yourself
And all the other voices said
Change your mind
You're always wrong
Always wrong

Come around at christmas
I really have to see you
Smile at me slyly
Another festive compromise
But I live with desertion
And eight million people
Distant noises
Of other voices
Pulsing in my swinging arms
Caress the sound
So many dead
And all the other voices sing
Change your mind 
You're always wrong

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PRIMARY
 
The innocence of sleeping children
Dressed in white
And slowly dreaming
Stops all time
Slow my steps and start to blur 
So many years have filled my heart
I never thought I'd say those words

The further we go
And older we grow
The more we know ...
The less we show ...

The very first time I saw your face
I thought of a song
And quickly changed the tune
The very first time I touched your skin
I thought of a story
And rushed to reach the end 
Too soon

Oh remember
Please
Don't change

So the fall came
Thirteen years
A shiny ring
And how I could forget your name
The air no longer in my throat
Another perfect lie is choked
But it always feels the same

So they close together
Dressed in red and yellow
Innocent forever
Sleeping children in their blue soft rooms
Still dream

The further we go
And older we grow
The more we know ...

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HALO

I never felt like this with anyone before
you only have to smile and I'm dizzy
you make the world go round
a thousand times an hour
just touch my head
and send me spinning

I never felt like this with anyone before
you show me colours and I'm crying
you hold my eyes in yours
and open up the world
i can't believe all of this

i want to keep this feeling
deep inside of me
i want you always in my heart
you are everything

i never felt like this with anyone before
you fill my head full of rainbows
and all the rainbows end
is every step you take
just to be with you forever

i want to keep this feeling
deep inside of me
i want you always in my heart
you are everything

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HAROLD AND JOE

Nothing ever gets in my way
Nothing ever get on my mind
Nothing ever makes me stop to think about
Nothing of the kind

Nothing ever loses me sleep
(and) Nothing ever wins my heart
Nothing ever makes want to sing along
(and) Nothing makes me want to start

If I'm falling down a mountain
and I pick myself up
If I crash into an aspen
I don't give a frightful
Look around If I am burning
(and) I put myself out
I'm so completely full
I scare the world all the world inside out
Just look around
Just look.....

Nothing ever puts me out
Nothing ever pulls me in
Nothing ever makes me want to jump
Nothing makes me want to begin

Nothing ever gets me down
Nothing ever gets me uptight
(and) Nothing ever makes me run around
(and) Nothing makes me feel alright

If I'm hanging from a big tree*
(and) I cut myself down
(and) if I look into the sun
I just don't make a sound
(and) If I swallow two galbanums*
I spit them right out
I'm so completely full
I scare the world, yeah all the world inside out
Just look around
Just look around
Just look around

Nothing ever gets in my way
Nothing ever gets on my mind
Nothing ever makes me stop to think about
Nothing of the kind

Harold and Joe
go go go
Harold and Joe
go go go

Sing but...

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THE BABY SCREAMS
 
Heaven
Give me a sign
Waiting for the sun to shine
Pleasure fills up my dreams
And I love it
Like a baby screams

Its so useless
How can you be proud
When you're sinking into the ground
Into the ground fills up my dreams
And I love it
Like a baby screams

Couldn't ask for more you said
Take it all
And strike me
Strike me dead

Waiting again
Waiting
Like I waited before
Waiting again
Waiting here for nothing at all
Heaven fills up my dreams
And I love it
Like a baby screams

Couldn't ask for more you said
Couldn't ever let it end
Take it all
Take it all
And strike me dead

Heaven

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CLOSE TO ME

I've waited hours for this
I've made myself so sick
I wish I'd stayed asleep today
I never thought that this day would end
I never thought that tonight could ever be
This close to me

Just try to see in the dark
Just try to make it work
To feel the fear before you're here
I make the shapes come much too close
I pull my eyes out
Hold my breath
And wait until I shake

But if I had your faith
Then I could make it safe and clean
If only I was sure
That my head on the door was a dream

I've waited hours for this
I've made myself so sick
I wish I'd stayed asleep today
I never thought that this day would end
I never thought that tonight could ever be
This close to me

But if I had your face
I could make it safe and clean
If only I was sure
That my head on the door
Was a dream

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INBETWEEN DAYS
 
Yesterday I got so old
I felt like I could die
Yesterday I got so old
It made me want to cry
Go on go on
Just walk away
Your choice is made
Go on go on
And disappear
Go on go on
Away from here

And I know I was wrong
When I said it was true
That it couldn't be me and be her
Inbetween without you
Without you

Yesterday I got so scared
I shivered like a child
Yesterday away from you
It froze me deep inside
Come back come back
Don't walk away
Come back come back
Come back today
Come back come back
Why can't you see
Come back come back
Come back to me

And I know I was wrong
When I said it was true
That it couldn't be me and be her
Inbetween without you
Without you

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KYOTO SONG
 
A nightmare of you
Of death in the pool
Wakes me up at quarter to three
I'm lying on the floor of the night before
With a stranger lying next to me
A nightmare of you
Of death in the pool
I see no further now than this dream
The trembling hand of the trembling man
Hold my mouth
To hold in a scream

I try to think
To make it slow
If only here is where I go
If this is real
I have to see
I turn on fire
And next to me
It looks good
It tastes like nothing on earth
It looks good
It tastes like nothing on earth
Its so smooth it even feels like skin
It tells me how it feels to be new

It tells me how it feels to be new
A thousand voices whisper it true
It tells me how it feels to be new
And every voice belongs
Every voice belongs to you

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A NIGHT LIKE THIS
 
Say goodbye on a night like this
If it's the last thing we ever do
You never looked as lost as this
Sometimes it doesn't even look like you
It goes dark
It goes darker still
Please stay
But I watch you like I'm made of stone
As you walk away

I'm coming to find you if it takes me all night
A witch hunt for another girl
For always and ever is always for you
Your trust
The most gorgeously stupid thing I ever cut in the world

Say hello on a day like today
Say it everytime you move
The way that you look at me now
Makes me wish I was you
It goes deep
It goes deeper still
This touch
And the smile and the shake of your head

I'm coming to find you if it takes me all night
Can't stand here like this anymore
For always and ever is always for you
I want it to be perfect
Like before
I want to change it all

I want to change

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PUSH
 
Go go go
Push him away
No no no
Don't let him stay

He gets inside to stare at her
The seeping mouth
The mouth that knows
The secret you
Always you
A smile to hide the fear away
Oh smear this man across the walls
Like strawberries and cream
Its the only way to be

Exactly the same clean room
Exactly the same clean bed
But I've stayed away too long this time
And I've got too big to fit this time...

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SCREW
 
When you screw up your eyes
When you screw up your face
When you throw out your arms
And keep changing your shape
Taste the taste in your mouth
Taste the taste on your tongue
On the film on your eyes of what I've become

What do I do when you screw up your eyes?
What do I do when you screw up your face?
What do I do
When you throw out your arms
Fall on the floor
And keep changing your shape?
Jump right into your mouth?
Jump around on your tongue?

And the film on your eyes of the way I've become
Makes me sick at the way that I try
Anything in the world
To impress that I'm doing this
Only for you

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SINKING
 
I am slowing down
As the years go by
I am sinking
So I trick myself
Like everybody else

The secrets I hide
Twist me inside
They make me weaker

So I trick myself
Like everybody else
I crouch in fear and wait
I'll never feel again

If only I could remember
Anything at all

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SIX DIFFERENT WAYS
 
This is stranger than I thought
Six different ways inside my heart
And everyone I'll keep tonight
Six different ways go deep inside

I'll tell them anything at all
I know I'll give them more and more

I'll tell them anything at all
I know I'll give the world and more
The think I'm on my hands and head
This time they're much too slow

Six sides to every lie I say
It's that American voice again
It was never quite like this before
Not one of you is the same

This is stranger than I thought
Six different ways inside my heart
And everyone I'll keep tonight
Six different ways go deep inside

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THE BLOOD
 
Tell me who doesn't love
What can never come back
You can never forget how it used to feel
The illusion is deep
Its as deep as the night
I can tell by your tears you remember it all

I am paralysed by the blood of Christ
Though it clouds my eyes
I can never stop

How it feels to be dry
Walking bare in the sun
Every mirage I see is a mirage of you
As I cool in the twilight
Taste the salt on my skin
I recall all the tears
All the broken words

I am paralysed by the blood of Christ
Though it clouds my eyes
I can never stop

When the sunsets glow drifts away from you
You'll no longer know
If any of this was really true at all

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HIGH
    
Do do do do do do
Do do do do do do
When I see you sky as a kite
As high as I might
I can't get that high
And how you move
The way you burst the clouds
It makes me want to try
    
And when I see you sticky as lips
As licky as trips
I can't lick that far
But when you pout
The way you shout out loud
It makes me want to start
And when I see you
Happy as a girl
That swims in a world
Of magic show
It makes me bite
My fingers through
To think I could've let you go
   
And when I see you
Take the same sweet steps
You used to take
I say I'll keep on holding you
My arms so tight
I'll never let you slip away
  
Do do do do do do (x 7)
Da da da da da da
  
And when I see you
kitten as a cat (ow)
Yeah as smitten as that (ow)
I can't get that small
The way you fur
The how you purr
It makes me want to paw you all
And when I see you (do do do do)
Happy as a girl
That lives in a world (do do do
Of make-believe (do do do do)
It makes me pull my hair all out
To think I could've let you leave
   
And when I see you
Take the same sweet steps
You used to take I know
I'll keep on holding you
In arms so tight
They'll never let you go (never let you go)
    
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THIS TWILIGHT GARDEN
    
I lift my lips from kissing you
to kiss the sky
cloud soft and blue
and slow the sun melts down
into your golden words for me
   
I lift my hands from touching you 
to touch the wind that whispers through
this twilight garden
turns into a world
where dreams are real
  
no-one will ever take your place
I am lost in you
no-one will ever take your place 
so in love with you
   
I lift my eyes from watching you
to watch the star rise shine onto 
your dreaming face and dreaming smile
you're dreaming worlds
for me
    
I lift my lips from kissing you
and kiss the sky wide deepest blue 
and slow the moon swims up 
into your golden words
for me
   
no-one will ever take your place
I am lost in you
no-one will ever take your place 
so in love with you
   
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PLAY
    
Day after day 
I let you down
promise you to change
then change my mind
and every time I promise you
it will all be fine
it won't be like this next time
 
the days you wait 
turn into years
always wait 
helpless tears
hopeless nights
and all the fears
it will always be like this
  
you give me everything you have
hoping it will someday be enough
to melt my heart
to make me fall in love
  
day after day
I let you down
promise you to change it all
then change my mind
and every time I promise you
soon be fine
it won't be like this next time
  
but tonight we play I think
the final act
I push to hard 
and you cracked
walk away
don't look back
this time you've really gone
  
you give me everything you have
knowing it can never be enough 
my heart's too old 
too hard
too cold 
for you to love 

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I WANT TO BE OLD

I want to be old
And creek by the fire
I want to smell of rotting wood
It's all I desire
I want my joints to seize up
I want my legs to ache
I want my eyesight to fail
I want my skin to flake
To be old
I want to be old

I want false teeth
And not be able to chew
I want to be senile
A centigenarian fool
I want lots of wrinkles
Want my hearing to go
I want to be ignored
And I want to be slow
To be old
I want to be old

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JUST ONE KISS
 
I remember the time that you rained all night
The queen of Siam in my arms
Remember the time that the islands sank
But nobody opened their eyes

Remember that time that the trees fell down
The wood crashing through the wall
Remember the sound that could wake the dead
But nobody woke up at all

Somebody died for this
Somebody died for just one kiss

Remember the time that the sky went black
We waited alone on the sands
Remember the taste of the raging sea
But nobody held out their hands

Somebody died for this
Somebody died
For just one kiss

Just one kiss
Just one kiss

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LAMENT
 
Today there was a tragedy
Underneath the bridge
A man walked
Cold and blue
Into La Ment
The sky coloured perfect
As the man slipped away
Waving with a last vanilla smile

Somewhere at a table
Two drowned fools
Smoking
Drinking water as they talked
Of how they loved our lady
And oh the smell as candles die

One more ice cream river body
Flowed underneath the bridge
Underneath the bridge

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LET'S GO TO BED
 
Doo doo doo doo
Doo doo doo doo

Let me take your hand
I'm shaking like milk
Turning
Turning blue
All over the windows and the floors
Fires outside in the sky
Look as perfect as cats
The two of us
Together again
But it's just the same
A stupid game

But I don't care if you don't
And I don't feel if you don't
And I don't want it if you don't
And I won't say it
If you won't say it first

You think you're tired now
But wait until three
Laughing at the Christmas lights
You remember from December
All of this then back again
Another girl
Another name
Stay alive but stay the same
It's just the same
A stupid game

But I don't care if you don't
And I don't feel if you don't
And I don't want it if you don't
And I won't say it
If you won't say it first

You can't even see now
So you ask me the way
You wonder if it's real
Because it couldn't be rain
Through the right doorway
And into the white room
It used to be the dust that would lay here
When I came here alone

Doo doo doo doo
Doo doo doo doo
Let's go to bed

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THE LOVECATS

We move like cagey tigers
We couldn't get closer than this
The way we walk
The way we talk
The way we stalk
The way we kiss
We slip through the streets
While everyone sleeps
Getting bigger and sleeker
And wider and brighter
We bite and scratch and scream all night
Let's go and
Throw all the songs we know

Into the sea
You and me
All these years and no one heard
I'll show you in spring
It's a treacherous thing
We missed you hissed the lovecats

We're so wonderfully wonderfully wonderfully
Wonderfully pretty
Oh you know that I'd do anything for you
We should have each other to tea huh?
We should have each other with cream
Then curl up by the fire
And sleep for awhile
It's the grooviest thing
It's the perfect dream

Hand in hand
Is the only way to land
And always the right way round
Not broken in pieces
Like hated little meeces
How could we miss
Someone as dumb as this

I love you ... let's go
Oh ... solid gone ...
How could we miss someone as dumb
As this?

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SPEAK MY LANGUAGE
 
It was only yesterday
Waving arms across the street
Your white face left me blue
How can I say all the things
I have to say to you
Oh all the people here
All look the same
The little time I spend with you
We drink each other dry

Mammnnarghaassstmmetc
Speak my language

It was only yesterday
My eyes touched yours across the street
We cut the words
And waved goodbye
And dropped off the edge of the world

Mammnnarghaassstmmetc
Speak my language

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THE DREAM
 
You're too far away
Too far away to touch
And this mother's love inside me
Hurts too much
Prettily waving
Playing on the sand
Dreaming of everything
Dancing
Dancing in our hands
Dancing
Dancing

Dizzy dizzy dizzy
As I speak
Like a tumbling cat
I watch in fascination
Like a vampire bat
Don't do it don't do it
Don't do it don't do it
Don't give it away
We'll use it up tomorrow
If we don't use it today

Rest your head
Oh just put it outside
All wrapped up in ribbons
The night
The dream
The time love died

We pushed it in our mouths
Pushed it deep inside
All wrapped up in ribbons
The night
The dream
The time
Love died

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THE WALK
 
I called you after midnight
Then ran until my heart burst
I passed the howling woman
And stood outside your door

We walked around the lake
And woke up in the rain
And everyone turned over
Troubled in their dreams again

Visiting time is over
And so we walk away
And both play dead then cry out loud
Why we always cry this way?

I kissed you in the water
And made your dry lips sing
I saw you look
Like a Japanese baby
In an instant I remembered everything

I called you after midnight
Then ran until my heart burst
I passed the howling woman
And stood outside your door

I kissed you in the water
And made your dry lips sing
I saw you look
Like a Japanese baby
In an instant I remembered everything

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THE UPSTAIRS ROOM
 
I love it all
These games we play
I close my eyes
You run away
I'm sure I asked you to stay
But now you're gone
And so I feel the grey
Pulse in my head
I turn off the lights and crawl into bed
I try to think of sunshine
But my body goes wet
With the first crash of thunder

I don't think I can know
Anyone but you dear
That's for sure

When it gets to four
It's my turn to go
Oh the kiss
So alcoholic and slow
Arranging me for Saturday
I thought you would know
That I always sleep
Alone

I don't think I can know
Anyone but you
Dear
That's for sure

The upstairs room is cool and bright
We can go up there in summer
And dance all night

Your sister started talking at a minute after ten
So everyone jumped up
And then fell over again
In April you can join them
And stare at me

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ALL I WANT
 
Tonight I'm feeling like an animal
Tonight I'm howling inside
Tonight I'm feeling like an animal
Tonight I'm going wild

And all I want is to be with you again
And all I want is to hold you like a dog
And all I want is to be with you again
With you again
Just to hold you like a dog

Tonight I'm screaming like an animal
Tonight I'm losing control
Tonight I'm screaming like an animal
Tonight oh I'm getting so low

And all I want is to be with you again
And all I want is to hold you like a dog
And all I want is to be with you again
With you again
Just to hold you like a dog
That's all I want

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CATCH
 
Yes I know who you remind me of
A girl I think I used to know
Yes I'd see her when the day got colder
On those days when it felt like snow

You know I even think that she stared like you
She used to just stand there and stare
And roll her eyes right up to heaven
And make like I just wasn't there

And she used to fall down a lot
That girl was always falling
Again and again
And I used to sometimes try to catch her
But I never even caught her name

And sometimes we would spend the night
Just rolling about on a floor
And I remember
Even though it felt soft at the time
I always used to wake up sore

You know I even think that she smiled like you
She used to just stand there and smile
And her eyes would go all sort of far away
And stay like that for quite a while

And I remember she used to fall down a lot
That girl was always falling
Again and again
And I used to sometimes try to catch her
But I never even caught her name

Yes I sometimes even tried to catch her
But I never even caught her name

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FIGHT
 
Sometimes there's nothing to feel
Sometimes there's nothing to hold
Sometimes there's no time to run away
Sometimes you just feel so old
The times it hurts when you cry
The times it hurts just to breathe
And then it all seems like there's no-one left
And all you want is to sleep

Fight fight fight
Just push it away
Fight fight fight
Just push until it breaks
Fight fight fight
Don't cry at the pain
Fight fight fight
Or watch yourself burn again
Fight fight fight
Don't howl like a dog
Fight fight
Just fill up the sky
Fight fight fight
Fight til you drop
Fight fight fight
And never never
Never stop

Fight fight fight
Fight fight fight

So when the hurting starts
And when the nightmares begin
Remember you can fill up the sky
You don't have to give in
You don't have to give in

Never give in
Never give in
Never give in

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HEY YOU!!!
 
Hey you!!!
Yes you
Yes you the one that looks like Christmas
Come over here and kiss me
Kiss me

Hey you!!!
Yes you
Yes you the one that looks delirious
Come over here and kiss me
Kiss me

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HOT HOT HOT!!!
 
The first time I saw lightening strike
I saw it underground
Six deep feet below the street
The sky came crashing down
For a second that place was lost in space
Then everything went black
I left that basement burning
And I never went back

The second time I saw it strike
I saw it at sea
It lit up the fish like rain
And rained then down on me
For a second that boat was still afloat
Then everything went black
I left it underwater
And I never went back

Hey hey hey!!!
But I like it when that lightening comes
Hey hey hey!!!
Yes I like it alot
Hey hey hey!!!
Yes I'm jumping like a jumping jack
Dancing screaming itching squealing fevered
Feeling hot hot hot!!!

The third time I saw lightening strike
It hit me in bed
It threw me around
And left me for dead
For a second that room was on the moon
Then everything went black
I left that house on fire
And I never went back

Hey hey hey!!!
But I like it when that lightening comes
Hey hey hey!!!
Yes I like it alot
Hey hey hey!!!
Yes I'm jumping like a jumping jack
Dancing screaming itching squealing fevered
Feeling hot hot hot!!!

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HOW BEAUTIFUL YOU ARE

You want to know why I hate you?
Well I'll try and explain...
You remember that day in Paris
When we wandered through the rain
And promised to each other
That we'd always think the same
And dreamed that dream
To be two souls as one
And stopped just as the sun set
And waited for the night
Outside a glittering building
Of glittering glass and burning light...

And in the road before us
Stood a weary greyish man
Who held a child upon his back
A small boy by the hand
The three of them were dressed in rags
And thinner than the air
And all six eyes stared fixedly on you

The father's eyes said "Beautiful!
How beautiful you are!"
The boy's eyes said
"How beautiful!
She shimmers like a star!"
The childs eyes uttered nothing
But a mute and utter joy
And filled my heart with shame for us
At the way we are

I turned to look at you
To read my thoughts upon your face
And gazed so deep into your eyes
So beautiful and strange
Until you spoke
And showed me understanding is a dream
"I hate these people staring
Make them go away from me!"

The fathers eyes said "Beautiful!
How beautiful you are!"
The boys eyes said
"How beautiful! She glitters like a star!"
The child's eyes uttered joy
And stilled my heart with sadness
For the way we are

And this is why I hate you
And how I understand
That no-one ever knows or loves another

Or loves another

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ICING SUGAR

Your delicious
Dreaming
Slack jawed
Green eyed
Rub my nose in
Icing sugar
Smooth as
When this cold and deadly
Blade
Kissed the fruit
So soft
And gently breathing
Under your skin

Oh I'll empty you
I'll empty you
As empty as a boy can be
As empty
As a boy can be

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IF ONLY TONIGHT WE COULD SLEEP
 
If only tonight we could sleep
In a bed made of flowers
If only tonight we could fall
In a deathless spell

If only tonight we could slide
Into deep black water
And breathe
And breathe...

Then an angel would come
With burning eyes like stars
And bury us deep
In his velvet arms

And the rain would cry
As our faces slipped away
And the rain would cry

Don't let it end...

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JUST LIKE HEAVEN
 
"Show me how you do that trick
The one that makes me scream" she said
"The one that makes me laugh" she said
And threw her arms around my neck
"Show me how you do it
And I promise you I promise that
I'll run away with you
I'll run away with you"

Spinning on that dizzy edge
I kissed her face and kissed her head
And dreamed of all the different ways I had
To make her glow
"Why are you so far away?" she said
"Why won't you ever know that I'm in love with you
That I'm in love with you"

You
Soft and only
You
Lost and lonely
You
Strange as angels
Dancing in the deepest oceans
Twisting in the water
You're just like a dream

Daylight licked me into shape
I must have been asleep for days
And moving lips to breathe her name
I opened up my eyes
And found myself alone alone
Alone above a raging sea
That stole the only girl I loved
And drowned her deep inside of me

You
Soft and only
You
Lost and lonely
You
Just like heaven

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LIKE COCKATOOS
 
She walked out of her house
And looked around
At all the gardens that looked
Back at her house
(Like all the faces
That quiz when you smile...)

And he was standing
At the corner
Where the road turned dark
A part of shiny wet
Like blood the rain fell
Black down on the street

And kissed his feet she fell
Her head an inch away from heaven
And her face pressed tight
And all around the night sang out
Like cockatoos

"There are a thousand things" he said
"I'll never say those things to you again"
And turning on his heel
He left a trace of bubbles
Bleeding in his stead

And in her head
A picture of a boy who left her
Lonely in the rain
(And all around the night sang out
like cockatoos)

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ONE MORE TIME
 
I'd love to touch the sky tonight
I'd love to touch the sky
So take me in your arms
And lift me like a child
And hold me up so high
And never let me go
Take me
Take me in your arms tonight

Hold me
Hold me up so high
And never let me down
Hold me
Hold me up so high
To touch the sky
Just one more time

Take me in your arms tonight
Take me in your arms
Just one more time
Just one more time
Just one more time

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THE PERFECT GIRL

You're such a strange girl
I think you come from another world
You're such a strange girl
I really don't understand a word
You're such a strange girl
I'd like to shake you around and around
You're such a strange girl
I'd like
To turn you
All upside down

You're such a
Strange girl
The way you look like you do
You're such a strange girl
I want
To be with you

I think I'm falling
I think I'm falling in
I think I'm falling in love with you
With you

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SHIVER AND SHAKE
 
You're just a waste of time
You're just a babbling face
You're just three sick holes that run like sores
You're a fucking waste
You're like a slug on the girl
Oh you're useless and ugly
And useless and ugly
And I shiver and shake
When I think of how you make me hate

I want to smash you to pieces
I want to smash you up and screaming
I want to smash you helpless
Down on the floor
Smash you until you're not here anymore

And I shiver and shake
Shiver and shake

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THE KISS
 
Kiss me kiss me kiss me
Your tongue is like poison
So swollen it fills up my mouth

Love me love me love me
You nail me to the floor
And push my guts all inside out

Get it out get it out get it out
Get your fucking voice
Out of my head

I never wanted this
I never wanted any of this
I wish you were dead
I wish you were dead

I never wanted any of this
I wish you were dead
Dead
Dead
Dead

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THE SNAKEPIT
 
Well we're a mile under the ground
And I'm thinking that it's Christmas
And I'm kissing you hard
Like I've got very important business
And no-one knows
And no-one sees us
Because they're drinking themselves senseless
And I'm writhing
And I'm writhing
And I'm writhing in the snakepit

Well I'm out in a car
And it's just full of stupid girls
And I've forgotten how to speak
And I just can't remember a word
And my eyes feel like they're bursting
And they're splitting like plums
And I'm writhing
And I'm writhing
And I'm writhing in the snakepit

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A THOUSAND HOURS
 
For how much longer can I howl into this wind?
For how much longer
Can I cry like this?

A thousand wasted hours a day
Just to feel my heart for a second
A thousand hours just thrown away
Just to feel my heart for a second

For how much longer can I howl into this wind?

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TORTURE
 
I'm in the room without a light
The room without a view
I'm here for one more treacherous night
Another night with you
It tortures me to move my hands
To try to move at all
And pulled
My skin so tight it screams
And screams and screams
And pulls some more

Hanging like this
Like a vampire bat
Hanging like this
Hanging on your back
I'm helpless again

My body is cut and broken
It's shattered and sore
My body is cut wide open
I can't stand anymore
It tortures me to move my hands
To try to move at all
And pulled
My skin so tight screams
And screams and screams
And screams some more

Hanging like this
Like a vampire bat
Hanging like this hanging on your back
Oh it's torture
And I'm almost there
It's torture
But I'm almost there

It's torture
But I'm almost there
It's torture
But I'm almost there

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WHY CAN'T I BE YOU?
 
You're so gorgeous I'll do anything
I'll kiss you from your feet
To where your head begins
You're so perfect you're so right as rain
You make me
Make me hungry again

Everything you do is irresistable
Everything you do is simply kissable
Why can't I be you?

I'll run around in circles
Til I run out of breath
I'll eat you all up
Or I'll just hug you to death
You're so wonderful
Too good to be true
You make me
Make me hungry for you

Everything you do is simply delicate
Everything you do is quite angelicate
Why can't I be you?

You turn my head when you turn around
You turn the whole world upside down
I'm smitten I'm bitten I'm hooked I'm cooked
I'm stuck like glue
You make me
Make me hungry for you

Everything you do is simply dreamy
Everything you do is quite delicious
Why can't I be you?
Why can't I be you?
Why can't I be you?

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NEVER ENOUGH

However much I push it down
It's never enough
However much I push it around
It's never enough
However much I make it out
It's never enough
Never enough
However much I do.......

However big I ever feel
It's never enough
Whatever I do to make it real
It's never enough
In any way I try to speak
Never enough
Never enough
However much I try to speak
It's never enough
However much I'm falling down
It's never enough
However much I'm falling out
It's...never...enough
Whatever smile I smile the most
Never enough
Never enough
However I smile I smile the most

So let me hold it up just one more go
Holding it over just once more
One more time to fill it up
One more time to kill
Whatever I do it's never enough
It's never enough!

However much I push it down
It's never enough
However much I push it around
It's never enough
However much I make it out
It's never enough
However much I do
Never enough
Never enough
However much I'm falling down
Never enough
However much I'm falling out
Never, never enough!
Whatever smile I smile the most
Never enough
However I smile I smile the most

So let me hold it up just one more go
Holding it over just once more
One more time to fill it up
One more time to kill
Whatever I do it's never enough
Never enough!
So let me hold it up just one more go
Holding it over just once more
One more time to fill it up
One more time to kill
Whatever I do it's never enough
It's never enough
It's never enough
It's never enough
It's never enough
It's never, it's never enough

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2 LATE
 
So I'll wait for you
Where I always wait
Behind the signs that sell the news
I'll watch for you like yesterday
And hope for you
One day that once
Spent out on me
And up 'til late
I search for you
Your hat pushed straight
Away from me
Your measured step
Heads up you win
Always too late

If I could just once catch your eye
Invisible against the words
That hold you down in solitude
And never let you go
The way that every time
My eyes just close
Like lids of wooden men in file
I put you under rainy day
Your hat's all off
And I'm gone away

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BABBLE
 
Nothing ever changes
Nothing ever moves
I swim around in circles
In the same old lifeless room
And talk about the mirror man
The whispers in my ear again
The hot and sticky pillow man
Is smothering my face again

Nothing ever changes
Nothing ever moves
And I run around hysterical
In dead persistent gloom
And babble out in simile
Like dog-head-monkey-music me
Shut up shut up shut up shut up
Shut up!!!
And let me breathe...

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BREATHE
 
Breathe
Breathe on me
Be like you used to be
Breathe on me

Move in me
Be like you used to be
Move in me
Move in me

Be with me
Be like you used to be
With me
With me

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CHAIN OF FLOWERS
 
Please wake up
It's so dark and cold
Please wake up
I feel so alone
And I feel so scared
That you're going away
And I feel so scared...

All I want is summer
Stories from before
Just like the day you tried to hide
Behind the churchyard wall
And fell asleep before I came
I found you
In a chain of flowers
Sleeping like a marble girl
Sleeping in another world...

I'll never tell you
Of all the different ways
You make me so afraid...

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CHARLOTTE SOMETIMES
 
All the faces
All the voices blur
Change to one face
Change to one voice
Prepare yourself for bed
The light seems bright
And glares on white walls
All the sounds of Charlotte sometimes
Into the night
With Charlotte sometimes

Night after night she lay alone in bed
Her eyes so open to the dark
The streets all looked so strange
They seemed so far away
But Charlotte sometimes did not cry
The people seemed so close
Playing expressionless games
The people seemed so close
So close
So many
Other names

Sometimes I'm dreaming
Where all the other people dance
Sometimes I'm dreaming
Charlotte Sometimes
Sometimes I'm dreaming
Expressionless the trance
Sometimes I'm dreaming
So many different names
Sometimes I'm dreaming
The sounds all stay the same
Sometimes I'm dreaming
She hopes to open shadowed eyes
On a different world
Come to me 
Scared princess
Charlotte sometimes

On that bleak track
(See the sun is gone again)
The tears were pouring down her face
She was crying and crying for a girl
Who died so many years before...

Sometimes I dream
Where all the people dance
Sometimes I dream
Charlotte sometimes
Sometimes I dream
The sounds all stay the same
Sometimes I'm dreaming
There are so many different names
Sometimes I dream
Sometimes I dream...

Charlotte sometimes crying for herself
Charlotte sometimes dreams a wall around herself
But it's always with love
With so much love it looks like
Everything else
Of Charlotte sometimes
So far away
Glass sealed and pretty
Charlotte sometimes

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DO THE HANSA
 
Ein zwei drei vier
Steve oh yeah
Platinum all the way
Do the hansa
Do the hansa
Etc etc

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THE EXPLODING BOY
 
I couldn't hear a word you said
I couldn't hear at all
You talked until your tongue fell out
And then you talked some more
I knew if I turned
I'd turn away from you
And I couldn't look back

Tell yourself we'll start again
Tell yourself it's not the end
Tell yourself it couldn't happen
Not this way
Not today

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FEAR OF GHOSTS
 
Like a feeling that I'm down
Down inside my heart
Like I'm looking out through
Splitting bloodred
Windows in my heart
>From a higher up than heaven
And a harder down than stone
Shake the fear that always clawing
Pulls me clawing down alone
As I spitting splitting bloodred
Breaking windows in my heart
And the past is taunting
Fear of ghosts
Is forcing me apart
And the further I get
>From the things that I care about
The less I care about
How much further away I get...

I am lost again
With everything gone
And more alone
Than I have ever been
I expect you to understand
To feel it too
But I know that even if you will
You cannot ever help me
Nor can I
Ever help you

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A FEW HOURS AFTER THIS...
 
The look before I go
Is the look for you
You only have to look and it will all come true
And we can fall outside
Into the fizzy night
Or pull me down in here
You know it's all the same
I only want to see if you are happy again
Or we can roll around
And find out upside down

A few hours after this and we're apart again
Like two white checks
Like opposite poles
In a secret game
(like nothing like these I suppose...)
I really should have known by the cut of your smile
That the answer would be simple
It still took you awhile to get it out of me
I thought you'd do it easily

Just put your hands around my heart
And squeeze me until I'm dry
I never thought you'd ever start to ever ask me why

I never saw you again

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HAPPY THE MAN
 
I'll never understand
(Come closer and I'll whisper)
Who was that standing in the rain?
If only I could remember
What he said
(And how it all began)

Happy the man
With the face that smiles

But it has to have a name
(Something strong, something faithful, something pure)
How does he look so safe?

He'll never
Never turn away
Happy the man

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HEROIN FACE
 
Spit out the shout of a warning
Death is an honour with doubts
So you live in the end
And you mistrust the start
Because you don't think it counts

But you'll pay for yourself
You'll pay for yourself
You're just a heroin face

You see a heroin face in the mirror
And someone is clutching your breath
And you believe in the needle of night
You're only doing your best

But you'll pay for yourself
You'll pay for yourself

You believe in the needle of night
And someone is cluthing your breath
So you mistrust the start
By always running away
But you'll never come back

You're just a heroin face
Heroin face

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I'M COLD
 
You're begging me to stay
But I'm laughing in your face
You're so desperate
Not to let those years of care
All go to waste
But it was you who wanted love
Not romance
You have to pay the price
My body may be made of fire
But my soul is made of ice

I'm me
I'm cold
I'm cold
I'm told
I'd love to love you girl
But my body
Has just been sold

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A JAPANESE DREAM
 
I'm going back to the land of the blind
Back to the land where the sun never shines
I'm going back there and I'm hoping to find
Everything just as it was before
I left it all behind

I slept at nights there hysterically
Twisted and turned
But I just couldn't get free
Opened my eyes
But I still couldn't see
But I could feel her
China white girl

So I get down on the floor
Like I am worshipping god
Burning like a monkey
I get down on the floor
Like I am praying to the lord
Burning like a monkey

Mmmmmm that was a Japanese dream alright
The sound of the storm
And the flickering light
And the way that her scent used to fill up the night like...
Like her scent used to fill up the night

So I get down on the floor
Like I am worshipping god
Burning like a monkey
I get down on the floor
Like I am praying to the lord
Burning like a monkey

Just look at me now
Just look at me this way
It looks like I am quite insane
It looks like I am trying to eat off my face
It looks like I'm going to the land of the blind anyway
Back where the sun never shines
Back to the land of the blind
Back in a Japanese dream

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A MAN INSIDE MY MOUTH
 
I woke up at seven and my body was vibrating
I was wrapped up in a blanket
I was grey
Damp and sore
The bedroom was an engine and my heartbeat was erratic
(like I think I'm at the racing
Like the night before)
I remember one girl standing
One was sitting on the ground
One was holding me up
The other pulling me down
And I couldn't decide which one was real
Because there wasn't a sound
(Like I was pregnant again...)

"Don't move don't blink don't even breathe" she said
"Or the photograph will spoil
And cut you off at the head"
So I was sucking 
I was sucking like a fat lady would
But I couldn't hold it down another second
(Bleagh!)
"Don't twitch don't shout don't think don't even breathe" she said
"Or the photograph will spoil and cut you off at the head"
So I was sweating
I was sweating like a fat lady would
And I woke up
With a man inside my mouth
(This won't hurt at all)

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NEW DAY

New day
In heaven the ground is waiting
For the dust
The seed
My love once more
I shout
New day

Hold the air and gasp in life
This solid dance
This cold cold night
Is gone
The dark heat throbs
The fools sweat swims
The hazy light
The deadly sins
Are gone

Crack the stone
Invade my head
Dropping honey dropping dead again
The silence shouts
Across the gap
Another dreaming
Love me again
Shout.

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OUT OF MIND
 
I've been up for days
And I feel like a menagerie
I'm scratching 'til I bleed
And I keep on seeing
Imaginary lemurs
In the street
In the middle of the day
But as long as I can breathe
Then I know I'll be OK
I'll be alright
I'm out of mind
I'm out of sight
I'm out of sight

I've been up for days
And I feel like a laboratory rat
Inside a maze
And I reel in the monotony of
Screaming
At the moon
In the middle of the day
But as long as I can see it
Then I know I'll be ok
I'll be fine
I'm out of sight
I'm completely out of mind
Completely out of mind

OK
Alright
Come and watch me shake tonight
Mouth wide
Soft and bright
Bite my hand and scream
OK
Alright
Come and watch me break tonight
Push deep
Out of sight
Bite my hand and hold on tight...

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PILLBOX TALES
 
Electric line
Racing time
Fire down the wall
Spinning around
The killing ground
It makes you look so small
Henna years
The stinging tears
Flesh on the railway track
The screaming queen
On the TV screen
Is never coming back

Don't suffer no more
Just step inside and listen
Listen to my pillbox tales

Your special days
Your winning ways
You're living out the past
You're lying lies
And tying ties
And running much too fast
But you feel so sick
If you run too quick
And wishing every day
Wishing you were years away

Don't suffer no more
Just step inside and listen
Listen to my pillbox tales

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MR. PINK EYES
 
You look so cool
Oh I don't think
Just fall over be like me
Mr. Pink Eyes

Your mind is blank
And mine's away
Oh you can't see
You can't smell
Mr. Pink Eyes

It's got to be jazz
That's what she wants
You are so vile
Mr. Pink Eyes

Oh give me a look
Give me a look
Or sit on my head
Or jump on my foot
Do something

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SNOW IN SUMMER
 
High up on this mountain
The whole world looks so small
And all the rivers
Run away
Slipping in your deep green heart
I drink you as I swim
And I'm sliding
And I'm sliding with you
Slide beneath my skin

Sleek and deep
And salty sweet
You open up in me
Just like the snow in summer

High up on this mountain
The whole world looks so small
And all the rivers
Run away
Slipping in your soft white heart
I drink you as I swim
And I'm falling
And I'm falling with you
Fall beneath my skin

Sleek and deep
And salty sweet
You come
And close in me
Just like the snow in summer

Just like the snow in summer
As it melts
Into the sea

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SPLINTERED IN HER HEAD
 
Shape is still
Asleep
With the toys
As tall as men
The pictures in the hallway
Turning inside
Whispers
Unseen
Jumping against the sky
Slipping away
He looks
For the last time...

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STOP DEAD
 
Let me forget
let me forget
Or let me go let me go
I'll keep it quiet as a whisper
I'll keep it low low low
Never
The biggest word I ever heard
Stop dead
Stop dead
You're getting too close

Before you even opened your eyes
I moved about a million ways
I killed about a million people
And filled about half a day
Before you even opened your eyes
You had to have to ask me who
I love it
I mean you

My face was in your hands
You looked into my eyes
You said I tasted right
And swallowed me alive

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SUGAR GIRL
 
Oh I wish I could find it funny
You laughing like that
But instead I change into a rage
And run around
Without a face
I wish I could find it funny
When you never came back
But I don't suppose I'll ever know
The how to keep you
Goodbye sugar girl

Goodbye sugar girl

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THROW YOUR FOOT
 
It's funny how your face gets bigger
Gets bigger in this atmosphere
And your mouth goes dry
With every move you try
It's so funny here

Jumping around -- click click click
When you're so slow
It's like the world is stopping

Fifteen times I try this
And every time I faint
You look at me and
Start to tell the joke
About the man who couldn't stop
Hiccupping

It would be so perfect
If you would just fall out the window

Throw your foot away
You're tired and your face is grey
Like the sad old fool
You groove

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PLAY

Day after day 
I let you down
Promise you to change
Then change my mind
And every time I promise you
It will all be fine
It won't be like this next time

The days you wait 
Turn into years
Always wait 
Helpless tears
Hopeless nights
And all the fears
It will always be like this

You give me everything you have
Hoping it will someday be enough
To melt my heart
To make me fall in love

Day after day
I let you down
Promise you to change it all
Then change my mind
And every time I promise you
Soon be fine
It won't be like this next time
But tonight we play I think
The final set
I push to hard 
And you crack
Walk away
Don't look back
This time you've really gone

You give me everything you have
Knowing it can never be enough 
My heart's too old 
Too hard
Too cold 
For you to love 

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COLD
 
Scared
Your back was turned 
Curled like an embryo
Take another face
You will be kissed again
I was cold as I mouthed the words
And crawled across the mirror
I wait
Await the next breath
Your name
Like ice into my heart

A shallow grave
A monument to the ruined age
Ice in my eyes
And eyes like ice don't move
Screaming at the moon
Another past time
Your name
Like ice into my heart

Everything as cold as life
Can no one save you?
Everything 
As cold as silence
And you never say a word

Your name
Like ice into my heart
Your name
Like ice into my heart

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THE FIGUREHEAD
 
Sharp and open
Leave me alone
And sleeping less every night
As the days become heavier and weighted
Waiting
In the cold light
A noise
A scream tears my clothes as the figurines tighten
With spiders inside them
And dust on the lips of a vision of hell
I laughed in the mirror for the first time in a year

A hundred other words blind me with your purity
Like an old painted doll in the throes of dance
I think about tomorrow
Please let me sleep
As I slip down the window
Freshly squashed fly
You mean nothing
You mean nothing

I can lose myself in Chinese art and American girls
All the time
Lose me in the dark
Please do it right
Run into the night
I will lose myself tomorrow
Crimson pain
My heart explodes
My memory in a fire
And someone will listen
At least for a short while

I can never say no to anyone but you

Too many secrets
Too many lies
Writhing with hatred
Too many secrets
Please make it good tonight
But the same image haunts me
In sequence
In despair of time

I will never be clean again
I touched her eyes
Pressed my stained face
I will never be clean again

Touch her eyes
Press my stained face
I will never be clean again
I will never be clean again
I will never be clean again
I will never be clean again

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THE HANGING GARDEN
 
Creatures kissing in the rain
Shapeless in the dark again
In the hanging garden
Please don't speak
In the hanging garden
No one sleeps
In the hanging garden
In the hanging garden

Catching haloes on the moon
Gives my hands the shapes of angels
In the heat of the night
The animals scream
In the heat of the night
Walking into a dream . . .

Fall fall fall fall
Into the walls
Jump jump out of time
Fall fall fall fall
Out of the sky
Cover my face as the animals cry
In the hanging garden
In the hanging garden

Creatures kissing in the rain
Shapeless in the dark again
In a hanging garden 
Change the past
In a hanging garden
Wearing furs 
And masks

Fall fall fall fall
Into the walls
Jump jump out of time
Fall fall fall fall
Out of the sky
Cover my face as the animals die
In the hanging garden
As the animals die
Cover my face as the animals die

In the hanging garden

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ONE HUNDRED YEARS
 
It doesn't matter if we all die
Ambition in the back of a black car
In a high building there is so much to do
Going home time
A story on the radio

Something small falls out of your mouth
And we laugh
A prayer for something better
A prayer
For something better

Please love me
Meet my mother
But the fear takes hold
Creeping up the stairs in the dark
Waiting for the death blow
Waiting for the death blow
Waiting for the death blow

Stroking your hair as the patriots are shot
Fighting for freedom on television
Sharing the world with slaughtered pigs
Have we got everything?
She struggles to get away . . .

The pain
And the creeping feeling
A little black haired girl
Waiting for Saturday
The death of her father pushing her
Pushing her white face into the mirror
Aching inside me
And turn me round 
Just like the old days
Just like the old days
Just like the old days
Just like the old days

Caressing an old man
And painting a lifeless face
Just a piece of new meat in a clean room
The soldiers close in under a yellow moon
All shadows and deliverance
Under a black flag
A hundred years of blood
Crimson
The ribbon tightens round my throat
I open my mouth
And my head bursts open
A sound like a tiger thrashing in the water
Thrashing in the water
Over and over
We die one after the other
Over and over
We die one after the other
One after the other
One after the other
One after the other
One after the other

It feels like a hundred years
A hundred years
A hundred years
A hundred years
A hundred years
One hundred years

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PORNOGRAPHY
 
A hand in my mouth
A life spills into the flowers
We all look so perfect
As we all fall down
In an electric glare
The old man cracks with age
She found his last picture
In the ashes of the fire
An image of the queen
Echoes round the sweating bed
Sour yellow sounds inside my head
In books 
And films
And in life
And in heaven
The sound of slaughter
As your body turns

But it's too late
But it's too late

One more day like today and I'll kill you
A desire for flesh
And real blood
I'll watch you drown in the shower
Pushing my life through your open eyes

I must fight this sickness
Find a cure
I must fight this sickness

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A SHORT TERM EFFECT
 
Movement
No movement
Just a falling bird
Cold as it hits the bleeding ground
He lived and died
Catch sight
Cover me with earth
Draped in black
Static
White sound

A day without substance
A change of thought
An atmosphere that rots with time
Colours that flicker in water
A short term effect

Scream
As she tries to push him over
Helpless and sick
With teeth of madness
Jump jump dance and sing
Sideways across the desert
A charcoal face 
Bites my hand
Time is sweet 
Derange and disengage everything

A day without substance
A change of thought
The atmosphere rots with time
Colours that flicker in water
A short term effect
 
A short term effect
A short term effect
An echo
And a stranger's hand
A short term effect
An echo
And a stranger's hand
A short term effect

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SIAMESE TWINS
 
I chose an eternity of this
Like falling angels
The world disappeared
Laughing into the fire
Is it always like this?
Flesh and blood and the first kiss
The first colours
The first kiss

We writhed under a red light
Voodoo smile
Siamese twins
A girl at the window looks at me for an hour
Then everything falls apart
Broken inside me
It falls apart

The walls and the ceiling move in time
Push a blade into my hands
Slowly up the stairs
And into the room
Is it always like this?

Dancing in my pocket
Worms eat my skin
She glows and grows
With arms outstretched
Her legs around me

In the morning I cried

Leave me to die
You won't remember my voice
I walked away and grew old
You never talk
We never smile
I scream
You're nothing
I don't need you any more
You're nothing

It fades and spins
Fades and spins

Sing out loud
We all die
Laughing into the fire

Is it always like this?
Is it always like this?
Is it always like this?

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A STRANGE DAY
 
Give me your eyes
That I might see the blind man kissing my hands
The sun is humming
My head turns to dust as he plays on his knees
As he plays on his knees

And the sand
And the sea grows
I close my eyes
Move slowly through drowning waves
Going away on a strange day

And I laugh as I drift in the wind
Blind
Dancing on a beach of stone
Cherish the faces as they wait for the end
Sudden hush across the water
And we're here again

And the sand
And the sea grows
I close my eyes
Move slowly through drowning waves
Going away
On a strange day

My head falls backs
And the walls crash down
And the sky
And the impossible 
Explode
Held for one moment I remember a song
An impression of sound
Then everything is gone
Forever

A strange day

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SCARED AS YOU

you know those things i said
all those things that made you cry
i didn't really mean that stuff
i didn't really mean that stuff
all i ever really mean
when i scream and shout the way i do
is i don't know i really don't
just the same as you
just the same as you

you know those things i said
all those things that made you run away from me
i didn't really mean a word
i didn't really mean i don't believe
all i ever really mean
when i rant and rave the way i do
is i'm scared again
just as scared as you

sometimes it's so hard
to just throw it all away
sometimes it's so hard
you could just throw it all away

and all those things i said
all those things that made you cry
i didn't really mean that stuff
i didn't really mean to say goodbye
didn't really mean to say goodbye

you know those things i said
all those things that made you run away from me
i didn't mean a word
i didn't really mean i don't believe
all i ever really mean
when i scream and shout the way i do
is i'm scared again
just as scared as you

sometimes it's so hard
i could just throw it all away
sometimes it's so hard
i could just throw it all away
sometimes it's so hard
to just throw it all away
sometimes it's so hard
to just throw it all away
just throw it all away
just throw it all away

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SEE THE CHILDREN

I stopped the car the other day
I had to ask a little girl the way
I thought she'd show me better if she got inside
And once inside I thought I'd take her for a little ride

So I see the children feel the children
See the children feel the children all the time
See the children feel the children
See the children feel the children all the time

I'm the supermarket santa underneath the Christmas tree
The little ones all like to come sit upon my knee
I have to hold them tightly cause they fall to the floor
A little concern
It's against the law

So I see the children feel the children
See the children feel the children all the time
See the children blush and uhh...
...All the time

I pass by the infant school every single day
I push sweeties through the fence but the kids just run away
I only want to talk with them and join in thier fun
But all the little children knew to
Run run run run run run run...

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A FOREST
 
Come closer and see
See into the trees
Find the girl
If you can
Come closer and see
See into the dark
Just follow your eyes
Just follow your eyes

I hear her voice
Calling my name
The sound is deep
In the dark
I hear her voice
And start to run
Into the trees
Into the trees

Into the trees

Suddenly I stop
But I know it's too late
I'm lost in a forest
All alone
The girl was never there
It's always the same
I'm running towards nothing
Again and again and again and again

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AT NIGHT
 
Sunk deep in the night
I sink in the night
Standing alone underneath the sky
I feel the chill of ice
On my face
I watch the hours go by
The hours go by

You sleep
Sleep in a safe bed
Curled and protected
Protected from sight
Under a safe roof
Deep in your house
Unaware of the changes at night

At night
I hear the darkness breathe
I sense the quiet despair
Listen to the silence 
At night
Someone has to be there
Someone has to be there

Someone must be there

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IN YOUR HOUSE
 
I play at night in your house
I live another life
Pretending to swim
In your house
I change the time in your house
The hours I take
Go so slow ...

I hear no sound in your house
Silence
In the empty rooms
I drown at night in your house
Pretending to swim
Pretending to swim

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M
 
Hello image
Sing me a line from your favourite song
Twist and turn
But you're trapped in the light
All the directions were wrong

You'll fall in love with somebody else 
Tonight

Help yourself
But tell me the words
Before you fade away
You reveal all the secrets
To remember the end
And escape someday

You'll fall in love with somebody else
Again tonight

Take a step
You move in time
But it's always back ...
The reasons are clear
Your face is drawn
And ready for the next attack

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PLAY FOR TODAY
 
It's not a case of doing what's right
It's just the way I feel that matters
Tell me I'm wrong
I don't really care

It's not a case of share and share alike
I take what I require
I don't understand ...
You say it's not fair

You expect me to act
Like a lover
Consider my moves
And deserve the reward
To hold you in my arms
And wait
And wait
And wait
For something to happen

It's not a case of telling the truth
Some lines just fit the situation
Call me a liar
You would anyway

It's not a case of aiming to please
You know you're always crying
It's just your part 
In the play for today

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SECRETS
 
Secrets
Share with another girl
Talking all night in a room
All night
Everything slowing down
I wish I was yours ...

Strangers
Nobody knows we love
I catch your eyes in the dark
One look relives the memory   
Remember me
The way I used to be

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SEVENTEEN SECONDS
 
Time slips away
And the light begins to fade
And everything is quiet now
Feeling is gone
And the picture disappears
And everything is cold now
The dream had to end
The wish never came true
And the girl
Starts to sing

Seventeen seconds
A measure of life

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THE BIG HAND

The big hand makes all of your favourite things
Like all your dreams go small
And all your friends run away
Until your memories fall
And the words don't fit
But the way the big hand smiles
You just won't care about it

The big hand makes all of your favourite things
Like all your days run out
And all your hopes disappear
And your smiles just stop
And your eyes go dead
And the shadows start to crawl
In the back of your head

But when the big hand speaks
It's like fireworks and heaven
So you listen don't think
And wish for nothing at all
And when the big hand sings
It's like fireworks and friends
Leaving alone I'm not
Leaving alone
Leaving alone I'll never
Leave alone again

So when the big hand holds up all your favourite things
And with a touch like glass
Starts to squeeze
You don't ask
'Why me?'
You just slip to the floor
Just slip to your knees

But when the big hand speaks
It's like fireworks and heaven
So you listen don't think
And wish for nothing at all
And when the big hand sings
It's like fireworks and friends
Leaving alone I'm not
Leaving alone
Leaving alone never leaving alone
Leaving alone I'm not
Leaving alone
Leaving alone
I'm not leaving alone again

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THIS TWILIGHT GARDEN

I lift my lips from kissing you
to kiss the sky
cloud soft and blue
and slow the sun melts down
into your golden words for me

I lift my hands from touching you 
to touch the wind that whispers through
this twilight garden
turns into a world
where dreams are real

no-one will ever take your place
I am lost in you
no-one will ever take your place 
so in love with you

I lift my eyes from watching you
to watch the star rise shine onto 
your dreaming face and dreaming smile
you're dreaming worlds
for me

I lift my lips from kissing you
and kiss the sky wide deepest blue 
and slow the moon swims up 
into your golden words
for me
 
no-noe will ever take your place
I am lost in you
no-one will ever take your place 
so in love with you

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IT'S NOT YOU
 
You wear your smile
Like it was going out of fashion
Dress to inflame
But douse any ideas of passion
You carry your love in a trinket
Hanging round your throat
Always inviting
Always exciting
But I must not take off my coat

Well I'm tired of hanging around
I want somebody new
I'm not sure who I've got in mind
But I know
That it's not you
That it's not you

You ask me questions
That I never wanted to hear
I am the only one
Just until you finish this year
I would murder you
If I had the alibi
Here in my hand
And you just laugh
'cause you don't understand

That I'm tired of hanging around
I want somebody new
I'm not sure
Who I've got in mind
But I know that it's not you
It's not you
It's not you
It's not you
It's not you
It's not you
No it's not you
That it's not you
It's not you
It's not you

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MEATHOOK
 
I went into the butchers
I said wanted wanted wanted some meat
Pass me some of that steak over there
It looks so sweet
I lost my heart to a meathook
That butcher man was some lady
He really stole my heart
He hung me up on his meathook
A real piece of
Slaughterhouse art

I lost my heart to a meathook

There's a meathook in my heart
Tearing me all apart
Ripping out my insides
But I just can't get away
I can't leave my
Meathook
Lost my heart to a meathook
Lost my heart to a meathook
Meathook

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BANANAFISHBONES
 
Curl into a ball like you have more fun
That would make it faster
Why do you do it do you act like you?...

Don't fight
Go red and blue and black and white
Sell this sell this
Or leave it senseless like a suck on a gun?
Put a piece of metal in your head you said
Make you dead
Make you hippa hippa hippa hippa

A palace of stones
Of your bananafish bones
I'll buy you a hundred years old
To celebrate our difference
Theorise and talk yourself
Until you're tired and old

Disappear everywhere and watch me
Pull my lips apart
Exploit inspire encourage
Be responsible for this
Ha ha

I don't think
I don't think
I make use of all this time
Oh kill me kiss me once
And then we'll throw it away
And then we'll throw it away

Turn off the lights
And tell me about the games you play

@SONG: Bird Mad Girl
 
This girl has got a smile
That can make me cry
This girl just burns with love
She's burning burning deep outside

Night time night time
Sets my house on fire
I'll turn into the melting man
I'll lose my life
To feel I feel desire

Oh I should feel
Like a polar bear
Like a polar bear
It's impossible

She flies outside this cage
Singing girl-mad words
I keep her dark thoughts deep inside
As black as stone
As mad as birds

Wild wild wild
And never turn away
Sends me all her love
She sends me everything
She sends me everywhere

Oh I could be 
A polar bear
Oh I could be
A polar bear
But it's impossible

I try to talk
The sky goes red
I forget
So fill my head
With some of this
Some of that
Some of every word she said

Oh I should be
A polar bear
But it's imposible

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THE CATERPILLAR
 
Flicka flicka flicka
Here you are
Cata cata cata
Caterpillar girl
Flowing in
And filling up my hopeless heart
Oh never never go
Dust my lemon lies
With powder pink and sweet
The day I stop
Is the day you change
And fly away from me

You flicker
And you're beautiful
You glow inside my head
You hold me hynotized
I'm mesmerized
Your flames
The flames that kiss me dead

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DRESSING UP
 
Going under slowly
It never seems too late
Going under so slow

Dressing up to kiss
Dressing up to touch all this

I'm dressing up to dance all week
I'm dressing up to sleep

Dressing up to kiss
Dressing up to be all this

I could eat your face
I could eat all of you
Oh this night will never let me go...

Going under slowly
Never seems too late
Going under slow
You'll pick me up again

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THE EMPTY WORLD
 
As stiff as toys 
And tall as men
And swaying like the wind torn trees
She talked about the empty world
With eyes like poison birds

She talked about the armies
That marched inside her head
And how they made her dreams go bad
But oh how happy she was
How proud she was
To be fighting in the war
In the empty world

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GIVE ME IT
 
Get away from me
Get your fingers out of my face
This room's so hot
This room's so hot

I break the walls

Get away from me
Leave me alone
Like the pig on the stairs
Hanging
In a groovy purple shirt

Gasping for air
I'm gasping for air
I'm gasping for love
I'm gasping for air

Slit the cats like cheese
Then eat the sweet sticky things
Suck harder suck harder
Suck your insides insides out

Blood thick swimming round your feet
As you're choking
Choking
Choking on the fleshy words

Give me it give me it give me it
Deaden my glassy mind
Give me it give me it give me it
Make me blind
One step back and one step down
And slip the needles in my side

My head is cold
My hands are cold
My heart is cold
My heart is black
And stops every fucking night
Every night
I wait until it stops

Sing birds sing birds sing birds sing
Get away

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PIGGY IN THE MIRROR
 
Shapes in the drink like christ
Cracks in the pale blue wall
I'm walking slowly and quickly but
Always away
Twisting twisting to the floor

Flowers in your mouth and the same dry
Song the routine from laughter land
16 white legs and a row of teeth
I watch you in secrecy

Your dying for the hope is gone
>From here we go nowhere again
I'm trapped in my face and I'm changing 
Too much
I can't climb out the way I fell in

Jump with me
For that old forgotten dance
The midnight sun will burn you up
Your life is cold
Your life is hot
Your life's too much for words

These occasions are such a relief
Another point another view to send
We start to talk
And it's all so safe
I feed you in my dreams

Footsteps on a wire
High above my head
The stain reveals my real intention
I'm the waiting beast
I'm the twisted nerve
As I dance dance
Back to the body in my bed

Look at the piggy
Piggy in the mirror

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SHAKE DOG SHAKE
 
Ha ha ha
Wake up in the dark
The after-taste of anger in the back of my mouth
Spit it on the wall
And cough some more
And scrape my skin with razor blades

And make up in the new blood
And try to look so good
Follow me
Make up in the new blood
And follow me to where the real fun is
Ha ha ha

As stale and selfish as a sick dog
Spurning sex like an animal of god
I'll tear your red hair by the roots
And hold you blazing
Hold you cherished in the dead electric light

Your face
I'll never see you this way again
I captured it so perfectly
As if I knew you'd disappear away

Shake shake shake shake
Shake shake shake shake
Shake dog shake
Shake shake shake shake
Shake shake shake shake
Shake dog shake

You hit me again
You howl and hit me again
The same sharp pain
Wakes me in the dark
And cuts me from my throat to my pounding heart
My heart
My shaking heart
My howl my shake dog

Oh shake dog shake
Shake shake
Shake dog shake

But we slept all night in the virgin's bed
And dreamed of death
And breathed like sick dogs
We slept all night in the virgin's bed
And breathed like death
And dreamed of sick dogs

Shake shake
Shake dog shake

Wake up wake up wake up
Shake dog shake
Wake up wake up wake up
Shake dog shake
Wake up in the new blood
Make up in the new blood
Shake up in the new blood
And follow me to where the real fun is
Shake dog shake

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THE TOP
 
I don't care
If only I could say that
And not feel so sick and scared
I don't care
If only I could say that
If only my eyes would close

It's jesus brilliant
You used to laugh
Walking these gorgeous blocks
This top is the place
Where nobody goes
You just imagine
You just imagine it all

Every day I lie here
And know that it's true
All I really want is you
Please come back
Please come back
Like all the other ones do

Please come back
All of you

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WAILING WALL
 
The holy city breathed
Like a dying man
It moved with hopeful tears 
With the tears of the blind

And on and on as the night drew in
Through broken streets 
That sucked me in
My feet were bare and cut with stones
With walking to the promised land

I pushed through crowds
Through seas of prayer
Through twisting hands and choking air
A vulture at the wailing wall
I circled

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OPEN
		    
		    i really don't know what i'm doing here
	     i really think i should've gone to bed tonight but...
				just one drink
		     and there're some people to meet you
			 i think that you'll like them
			      i have to say we do
	    and i promise in less than an hour we will honestly go
		     now why don't i just get you another
			  while you just say hello...
				       
			    yeah just say hello...
				       
			   so i'm clutching it tight
			   another glass in my hand
			  and my mouth and the smiles
			    moving up as i stand up
			    too close and too wide
			 and the smiles are too bright
			   and i breathe in too deep
			  and my head's getting light
		but the air is getting heavier and it's closer
			   and i'm starting to sway
	      and the hands on all my shoulders don't have names
			    and they won't go away
				 so here i go
			      here i go again...
				       
			    falling into strangers
			   and it's only just eleven
			 ans i'm staring like a child
			 until someone slips me heaven
			   and i take it on my knees
		       just like a thousand times before
			     and i get transfixed
				  that fixed
		       and i'm just looking at the floor
			   just looking at the floor
			   yeah i look at the floor
				       
			   and i'm starting to laugh
			    like an animal in pain
			and i've got blood on my hands
			and i've got hands in my brain
			   and the first short retch
			  leaves me gasping for more
			 and i stagger over screaming
			    on my way to the floor
			    and i'm back on my back
		    with the lights and the lies in my eyes
		    and the colour and the music's too loud
		       and my head's all the wrong size
				 so here i go
			      here i go again...
				       
			    yeah i laugh and i jump
			    and i sing and i laugh
			    and i dance and i laugh
			    and i laugh and i laugh
			   and i can't seem to think
				 where this is
				   who i am
			  why i'm keeping this going
			      keep pouring it out
			     keep pouring it down
		     and the way the rain comes down hard
			that's the way i feel inside...
				       
			    i can't take it anymore
			      this it i've become
			     this is it like i get
			   when my life's going numb
			  i just keep moving my mouth
			  i just keep moving my feet
			 i say i'm loving you to death
			   like i'm losing my breath
			and all the smiles that i wear
			 and all the games that i play
			 and all the drinks that i mix
			  and i drink until i'm sick
			 and all the faces that i make
			and all the shapes that i throw
			   and all the people i meet
			 and all the words that i know
			  makes me sick to the heart
			     oh i feel so tired...
				       
		     and the way the rain comes down hard
			  that's how i fell inside...
				       
------------------------------------------------------
HIGH

			 when i see you sky as i kite
			      as high as i might
			     i can't get that high
			       the how you move
			 the way you burst the clouds
			    it makes me want to try
				       
			 when i see you sticky as lips
			       as licky as trips
			     i can't lick that far
			       but when you pout
			  the way you shout out loud
			   it makes me want to start
		      and when i see you happy as a girl
		      that swims in a works of magic show
		      it makes me bite my fingers through
			to think i could've let you go
				       
			      and when i see you
			   take the same sweet steps
			       you used to take
			  i say i'll keep holding you
			       my arms so tight
			 i'll never let you slip away
				       
		      and when i see you kitten as a cat
			    yeah as smitten as that
			    i can't get that small
				the way you fur
			       the how you purr
			it makes me want to paw you all
		      and when i see you happy as a girl
		     that lives in a world of make-believe
		       it makes me pull my hair all out
		       to think i could've let you leave
				       
			      and when i see you
			   take the same sweet steps
			       you used to take
			i know i'll keep on holding you
			       in arms so tight
			   they'll never let you go
				       
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APART

			he waits for her to understand
			but she won't understand at all
		      she waits all night for him to call
			   but he won't call anymore
			   he waits to hear her say
				    forgive
		    but she just drops her pearl-black eyes
			   and prays to hear him say
				  i love you
			   but he tells no more lies
				       
			he waits for her to sympathize
			but she won't sympathize at all
		     she waits all night to feel his kiss
			    but always wakes alone
			   he waits to hear her say
				    forget
		      but she just hangs her head in pain
			   and prays to hear him say
				    no more
			    i'll never leave again
				       
			how did we get this far apart?
			we used to be so close together
			how did we get this far apart?
		    i thought this love would last forever
				       
			he waits for her to understand
			but she won't understand at all
		      she waits all night for him to call
			       but we won't call
			   he waits to hear her say
				    forgive
		    but she just drops her pearl-black eyes
			   and prays to hear him say
				  i love you
			   but he tells no more lies
				       
			how did we get this far apart?
			we used to be so close together
			how did we get this far apart?
		    i thought this love would last forever
				       
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FROM THE EDGE OF THE DEEP GREEN SEA

			     every time we do this
				i fall for her
			  wave after wave after wave
			       it's all for her
		       i know this can't be wrong i say
		       (and i'll lie to keep her happy)
			as long as i know that you know
			      that today i belong
			      right here with you
			    right here with you...
				       
			and so we watch the sun come up
		      from the edge of the deep green sea
		    and she listens like her head's on fire
			like she wants to believe in me
				   so i try
			   put your hands in the sky
				   surrender
				   remember
			     we'll be here forever
			and we'll never say goodbye...
				       
			      i've never been so
		      colourfully-see-through-head before
			      i've never been so
		       wonderfully-me-you-want-some-more
		    and all i want is to keep it like this
			       you and me alone
				 a secret kiss
			       and don't go home
				 don't go away
			      don't let this end
				  please stay
			      not just for today
				       
	       never never never never never let me go she says
	     hole me like this for a hundred thousand million days
			    but suddenly she slows
		      and looks down at my breaking face
			why do you cry? what did i say?
			  but it's just rain i smile
			   brushing my tears away...
				       
			   i wish i could just stop
		   i know another moment will break my heart
				too many tears
				too many times
		      too many years i've cried over you
				       
			how much more can we use it up?
				 drink it dry?
				take this drug?
		      looking for something forever gone
				 but something
			     we will always want?
				       
		  why why why are you letting me go? she says
			    i feel you pulling back
			 i feel you changing shape...
			 and just as i'm breaking free
		       she hangs herself in front of me
		   slips her dress like a flag to the floor
			     and hands in the sky
			     surrenders it all...
				       
			   i whish i could just stop
		   i know another moment will break my heart
				too many tears
				too many times
		       too many years i've cried for you
			     it's always the same
			      wake up in the rain
				 head in pain
				 hung in shame
			       a different name
				 same old game
				 love in vain
	       and miles and miles and miles and miles and miles
			    away from home again...
				       
------------------------------------------------------                                       
WENDY TIME

	       you look like you could do with a friend she said
		      you look like you could use a hand
		      someone to make you smile she said
			  someone who can understand
			      share your trouble
				  comfort you
				hold you close
			   and i can do all of these
		       i think you need me here with you
				       
		  you look like you do with a sister she said
	       you look like you need a girl to call your own...
			   like fabulous! fabulous!
			       call me fabulous!
			 and rubbing her hands so slow
		     you stare at me all strange she said
			   are you hungry for more?
			    i've had enough i said
			     please leave me alone
				   please go
				       
			  it doesn't touch me at all
			  it doesn't touch me at all
				       
	       you know that you could do with a friend she said
		      you know that you could use a word
		     like feel or follow or fuck she said
			and laughing away as she turned
			 you've everything but no-one
			  like the last man on earth
			     and when i die i said
			     i'll leave you it all
				  door closes
				leaves me cold
				       
			  it doesn't touch me at all
			  it doesn't touch me at all
				       
		     you really do need a sister she said
		 you really do need a girl to call your own...
			  like wonderful! wonderful!
			      call me wonderful!
			 and running her hands so slow
		     you stare at me all strange she said
			   are you hungry for more?
			    i've had enough i said
			     please leave me alone
				   please go
				   please go
				       
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DOING THE UNSTUCK

		       it's a perfect day for letting go
			  for setting fire to bridges
				     boats
		       and other dreary worlds you know
			       let's get happy!
		       it's a perfect day for making out
		    to wake up with a smile without a doubt
	    to burst grin giggle bliss skip jump and sing and shout
			       let's get happy!
				       
			 but it's much to late you say
			      for doing this now
			  we should have done it then
			   well it just goes to show
			     how wrong you can be
			and how you really should know
			   that it's never too late
			       to get up and go
				       
		     it's a perfect day for kiss and swell
		for rip-zipping button-popping kiss and well...
		there's loads of other stuff can make you yell
			       let's get happy!
		   it's a perfect day for doing the unstuck
		   for dancing like you can't hear the beat
		     and you don't give a further thought
			      to things like feet
			       let's get happy!
				       
			but it's much too late you say
			      for doing this now
			  we should have done it then
			   well it just goes to show
			     how wrong you can be
			and how you really should know
			    that it's never to late
			       to get up and go
				       
			      kick out the gloom
			      kick out the blues
		   tear out the pages with all the bad news
		 pull down the mirrors and pull down the walls
		   tear up the stairs and tear up the floors
			 oh just burn down the house!
			     burn down the street!
		 turn everything red and the beat is complete
			 with the sound of your world
			       going up in fire
		  it's a perfect day to throw back your head
			    and kiss it all goodbye
				       
		      it's a perfect day for getting old
			  forgetting all your worries
				     life
		       and everything that makes you cry
			       let's get happy!
		    it's a perfect day for dreams come true
			       for thinking big
		       and doing anything you want to do
			       let's get happy!
				       
			 but it's much to late you say
			      for doing this now
			  we should have done it then
			   well it just goes to show
			     how wrong you can be
			and how you really should know
			   that it's never too late
			       to get up and go
				       
			      kick out the gloom
			      kick out the blues
		   tear out the pages with all the bad news
		 pull down the mirrors and pull down the walls
		   tear up the stairs and tear up the floors
			 oh just burn down the house!
			     burn down the street!
		turn everything red and the dream is complete
			 with the sound of your world
			       going up in fire
		  it's a perfect day to throw back your head
			    and kiss it all goodbye
				       
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FRIDAY I'M IN LOVE

			 i don't care if monday's blue
		       tuesday's grey and wednesday too
			thursday i don't care about you
			    it's friday i'm in love
				       
			   monday you can fall apart
		       tuesday wednesday break my heart
			  thursday doesn't even start
			    it's friday i'm in love
				       
				 saturday wait
		       and sunday always comes too late
			 but friday never hesitate...
				       
			i don't care if monday's black
			tuesday wednesday heart attack
			  thursday never looking back
			    it's friday i'm in love
				       
			 monday you can hold your head
			 tuesday wednesday stay in bed
		      or thursday watch the walls instead
			    it's friday i'm in love
				       
				 saturday wait
		       and sunday always comes too late
			 but friday never hesitate...
				       
			    dressed up to the eyes
			   it's a wonderful surprise
		    to see your shoes and your spirits rise
			    throwing out your frown
			 and just smiling at the sound
			   and as sleek as a shriek
			   spinning round and round
			    always take a big bite
			  it's such a gorgeous sight
		     to see you in the middle of the night
			   you can never get enough
			     enough of this stuff
				  it's friday
				  i'm in love
				       
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TRUST
				     
		       there's no-one left in the world
			     that i can hold onto
		      there is really no-one left at all
			       there is only you
			    and if you leave me now
			  you leave all that we were
				    undone
			  there is really no-one left
			     you are the only one
				       
		      and still the hardest part for you
			    to put your trust in me
			i love you more than i can say
			  why won't you just believe?
				       
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A LETTER TO ELISE

		    oh elise it doesn't matter what you say
		    i just can't stay here every yesterday
		       like keep on acting out the same
			      the way we act out
			      every way to smile
				    forget
		       and make-believe we never needed
			      any more than this
			      any more than this
				       
		    oh elise it doesn't matter what you do
		  i know i'll never really get inside of you
			 to make your eyes catch fire
			      the way they should
		       the way the blue could pull me in
			      if they only would
			      if they only would
	    at least i'd lose this sense of sensing something else
				that hides away
				from me and you
			    there're worlds to part
		     with aching looks and breaking hearts
		    and all the prayers your hands can make
		    oh i just take as much as you can throw
			  and then throw it all away
			    oh i throw it all away
			like throwing faces at the sky
			   like throwing arms round
				   yesterday
			      i stood and stared
			   wide-eyed in front of you
			and the face i saw looked back
			      the way i wanted to
		      but i just can't hold my tears away
				the way you do
				       
		       elise believe i never wanted this
		i thought this time i'd keep all of my promises
	       i thought you were the girl always dreamed about
			    but i let the dream go
			    and the promises broke
			and the make-believe ran out...
				       
				   oh elise
			it doesn't matter what you say
		    i just can't stay here every yesterday
		       like keep on acting out the same
			      the way we act out
			      every way to smile
				    forget
		       and make-believe we never needed
			      any more than this
			      any more than this
				       
		      and every time i try to pick it up
			       like falling sand
			    as fast as i pick it up
		    it suns away through my clutching hands
		   but there's nothing else i can really do
			     there's nothing else
				i can really do
				   at all...
				       
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CUT

			if only you'd never speak to me
			      the way that you do
		      if only you'd never speak like that
			    it's like listening to
			       a breaking heart
				 a falling sky
			fire go out and friendship die
		    i wish you felt the way that i still do
				       
			if only you'd never look at me
			      the way that you do
		      if only you'd never look like that
			      when i look at you
			     i see face like stone
				  eyes of ice
			 mouth so sweetly telling lies
		    i wish you felt the way that i still do
			    the way that i still do
				 but you don't
			    you don't feel anymore
			    you don't care anymore
				 it's all gone
				       
		       if only you'd never pull from me
			      the way that you do
		      if only you'd never pull like that
			       when i'm with you
		       i feel hopeless hands helplessly
			 pulling you back close to me
		    i wish you felt the way that i still do
			    the way that i still do
				       
			if only you'd ever speak to me
			     the way you once did
			look at me the way you once did
			pull to me the way you once did
				 but you don't
			    you don't feel anymore
			    you don't care anymore
				 it's all gone
				 it's all gone
				       
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TO WISH IMPOSSIBLE THINGS

			  remember how it used to be
		      when the sun would fill up the sky
			 remember how we used to feel
			  those days would never end
			  those days would never end
				       
			  remember how it used to be
		       when the stars would fill the sky
			 remember how we used to dream
			 those nights would never end
			 those nights would never end
				       
		       it was the sweetness of your skin
		   it was the hope of all we might have been
		      that fills me with the hope to wish
			       impossible things
				       
			  but now the sun shines cold
			    and all the sky is grey
		   the stars are dimmed by clouds and tears
				and all i wish
				 is gone away
				  all i wish
				 is gone away
				       
				  all i wish
				 is gone away
				       
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END

			i think i've reached that point
			 where giving up and going on
		       are both the same dead end to me
			  are both the same old song
				       
			i think i've reached that point
			where every wish has come true
			 and tired disguised oblivion
			      is everything i do
				       
			     please stop loving me
			     please stop loving me
			   i am none of these things
				       
			i think i've reached that point
		     where all the things you have to say
		     and hopes for something more from me
		     are just games to pass the time away
				       
			     please stop loving me
			     please stop loving me
			   i am none of these things
				       
			i think i've reached that point
			where every word that you write
			    of every blood dark sea
			  and every soul black night
			and every dream you dream me in
			and every perfect free from sin
			       and burning eyes
			      and hearts on fire
			  are just the same old song
				       
			     please stop loving me
			     please stop loving me
			   i am none of these things
			   i am none of these things
				       
			   i am none of these things

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BURN

Don't look, don't look 
The shadows breath
Whispering me away from you
Don't wake at night to watch her sleep
You know that you will always see
This trembling ritual towers above my throat
Every night I burn
Every night I call your name
Every night I burn
Every night I call again
Don't talk of love cause shadows blur
Murmuring me away from you
Don't talk of worlds that never were
The end is always ever true
There's nothing you can ever say
Nothing you can ever do
Still every night I burn
Every night I scream your name
Every night I burn
Every night the dream's the same
Every night I burn
Waiting for my only friend
Every night I burn
Waiting for the world to end

Just paint you face and shadows smile
Slipping me away from you
It doesn't matter how you hide
We'll find you if we're wanting to
So slide back down and close your eyes
And sleep a while you must return
When every night I burn 
Every night I call your name
Every night I burn 
Every night I fall again
Every night I burn
And scream the animal scream
Every night I burn
Dream the crow black dream

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